how i know i’m a horrible person:

i’m talking to this attractive dude and we’re texting back and forth and i’m finally like, hey we should get a drink sometime. so he responds with telling me he doesn’t drink and i play it off like i don’t either and ask why he doesn’t. he says he used to be hardcore into drugs and alcohol and he went to rehab so now he doesn’t touch anything.

and all i could think was “damnit, i wish i met you then.”







this is me in a nutshell


Ellen DeGeneres was the “worst-case scenario.” She would expose me as being gay. She would force me to live a truthful, honest life, to be exactly who I am with no pretense. I thank God for her every day.I highly recommend inviting the worse-case scenario into your life. I met Ellen when I was 168 pounds and she loved me. She didn’t see that I was heavy; she only saw the person inside. My two greatest fears, being fat and being gay, when realized, led to my greatest joy, and yet I tried so hard to present myself as anything other than who I am. And I didn’t just one day wake up and be true to myself. Ellen saw a glimpse of my inner being from underneath the flesh and bone, reached in, and pulled me out.”
~ “Unbearable Lightness” by Portia De Rossi





i’m friggin obsessed with work. it’s my only day off and i’m so bored lol. i’m just sitting here thinking how i could be at work right now making money.